Vlogging!

HOW I STARTED:

Other than photos, videos are really the only other way to capture moments and growing up my family took a looot of videos of all the kids in our family. I should probably find a way to convert those old vhs tapes to dvd format sometime soon. They're fun to look back on and I want Cayden to have that too.

When I was pregnant, I was looking up a Tim Tam Slam video (lol) on YouTube and stumbled upon itsJudysLife. This was around the time when the twins had just been born so of course being pregnant myself, I wanted to see more of what parenthood would really be like. I started watching more of her videos and found it interesting that she would record every day of her life. Then it kind of blew my mind when I realized that her children could look up what they were doing on any given day. They've literally been recorded every. single. day. since they were born! I then looked up more daily vloggers and eventually found the Shaytards, Sacconejolys, and BFvsGF. The more I watched, the more I wanted to start vlogging as soon as Cayden was here.

Young and Doin' The Damn Thing

To start off, I'm 22 years old. While a majority of 21 year olds are finally legally barhopping I was 8 months pregnant. Not that I was ever one to go barhopping and partying in the first place. I may not have a college degree yet but I am a sophomore in Motherhood. Did you catch yourself judging yet?

Chia Pudding

Let's talk about chia! Currently a new obsession of mine and I put it in everything now. I'll sprinkle some on top of my acai bowls, blend some with my smoothies, and of course make chia pudding. I probably have it at least three times a week because of how easy it is to prepare before heading to bed. I'll wake up the next morning and it's all ready to go! My favorite pudding is tapioca so the first time I tried chia pudding I was hooked since it had the same consistency. Cayden enjoys it too so it's a quick and filling breakfast for the both of us. On top of all that, they come with so many benefits. They're full of antioxidants, keep you full and energized, and they have tons of protein, fiber, and omega-3 fatty acids. 

Self Confidence (or lack thereof)

Fair warning: it's about to get real real.

Every time I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror, all I feel is an overwhelming sense of loathing for my body. My body that kept me alive and healthy for 22 years without even so much as a broken bone. The body that carried a child for 9 months, birthed it, then provided and continues to provide comfort for him. How could I ever resent that? As much as I hate the term "mom bod", it's just what it is. Plain and simple. Of course me being me, I turn it into something that can be joked about in person but I feel like I am just riddled with insecurities. So much so that it feels crippling at times. I'll try on outfit after outfit and end up with a stack of hangers and a pile of clothes I just feel like throwing away. I'll hold on to my love handles and notice flaw after flaw.. after flaw.